Common sense did not win!

Alright so I work for Family Child Care for the government. Basicly it means I am allowed to run a daycare in housing. Well I am quitting after 6 months of working because I have never been so stressed out in all my life with these people. They are not environmentally aware at all of the impact that can be placed on the environment because of the rules they have in place.

When I had first started FCC I had switched my youngest son into cloth diapers gotten rid of our Paper towel usage and began using environmentally safe cleaning products. Well all of that went out the window when I began the home daycare. I was very disappointed but I at least was able to keep lucas in cloth diapers. (The only reason was because I got a doctors note).

I got a thick binder of stuff that I had to keep up with on a daily basis...I was assured that it was easy after the first month and that there really wasnt that much paperwork....oh the lies lol. I had so much paperwork and random stuff I needed to do that it was getting in the way of my homework. I kept bumping heads with the coordinators over the kids sleeping on mats because they were both one years old they were not staying on the mat but I was wrong of course. What newly turned one year was NOT going to stay on a mat and go to sleep. Also if you didnt know one year olds are old enough to sit at a youth table with three and four year olds. No really it does not matter that they will not actually sit and eat anything. Sigh I mean really.

So I also find out that I am being talked about with other providers. I am being talked about because they say I wasnt going to get my business off the ground because my preschool concept was too radical. I mean really thanks for blowing smoke up MY ass and then telling other providers different.

The whole program gave me enough work for three other people to do and felt that I should be able to do all of it while making sure the children are my primary concern. Which is where I decided to part ways with the program I felt the kids needed to come first that common sense needed to shine through but the coordinators do not see it that way. So really I think it was just best for me to start concentrating on school and my kids again because I was not happy with what was happening and I was not happy really at all anymore because I was so stressed out.

I think becoming a sub at the school will be a whole lot better for me in the end and will give the experiance I will need and I the flexibility I need so that I can take the tests for school and handle business for my playgroup and my spouses group.

Mother's Day Sucks

So I am going to have a craptastic mother's day....you know why? Because despite me reminding my husband about mothers day he forgot and I find myself having to go and buy my own present with two children in tow. I am not near my own mother and even if I was near her we are not doing alot of talking because...well she's freaking crazy. ok ok so I am crazy too but thats not the point the point really is that she is crazier than me lol.

So I have been dealing with my son not listening I mean he truly decides what he wants to do and does it because thats what he wants to do. I am at my wits end trying to be a good mother and understanding and setting boundaries and rules for him. I plan stuff for us to do together I speak to him all the time we get new books to read together I am buying him an expensive as hell bed to help him sleep better at night. I am just not breaking through the stubborn streak he has. Lucas is pretty good and I hardly have to say anything to him which really means he is only 1 years old and is not proficent enough to get into any trouble. Which to Nathan might seem like we like Lucas more because Lucas does not get in as much trouble. So yeah thats my parenting problems for now.

I have quit my job as a daycare provider. I had to do it I love my job but I think it might me some of the reason for Nathan acting out the way he has been. I also need more time to do my homework. I am starting my JR year of college and it's been super hard trying to deal with the fcc program and my homework. Dont even get me started on this stupid program. I will go into that another time.

Well I think thats it for now. I am off to get me and the kids dressed so that I can cash my checks and buy my own presents...cause it's fun to do that :)